Lexington

so we pull in to the hotel after about 10 hours of driving... THANK GOD!!!!!!
after driving around trying to find a wireless connection and Finlay getting one in a Hospital parking lot. alright well time to get ready sorry not long but off to Tennessee

why so i have to fall so hard.... ist not like i know you from Jo idk i am sick of myself being so pethedic. i know everyone hate me talking about you but its bc your all i think about your all i wnat to think about but i wish that you felt the same way but you dont so what can i do.... nothing jus be my fat ugly self.

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why dose life have to FUCKIN SUCK?

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life sucks... and its complicated and lonely and all around shitty. you know i wish that someone "loved me" why dose everything always have to be so damn depressing? yeah i know i will get over it but what if i don't want to then what?.... to good to be true isn't that always the case bc even if you think things are perfect BULL SHIT bc their not and they never will be. so was it a front or how you are with everyone why cant i stop thinking about you. even when your sick as fuck i cant help but wonder if you online or if your going to talk to me.... FUCK you i don't care yup keep telling myself that until i see you next.. i will be cool calm and collected hahhahah yeah right not in front of you that would be the day that i die witch i pretty much feel Like doing. every ones like I'm sorry bull your not you just don't know what else to say or you just want me to shut the fuck up but i will not i am going to not say stupid shit to be made fun of i have had enough......
vacation soon and i could not be happier i wanna get the fuck out of this good forsaken town and away from all the shit but i will still be wishing i was with you or wishing you would text but ha yeah right that shit ain't gunna happen....... <3 yup I'm fucked up... everything about you.... PERFECT yeah not perfect your a lil fucked up but yeah i still think that your it