revalation

Its time to start taking control of my life! I am sick of saying and not doing. I know that its the hardest part in life but i am ready! I need to stop thinking that things are just going to happen for me, and start making then happen for myself!! I need to focus on what i want and not what others want because if i don't then I am not happy. Is been so clear to me this whole time but i refused to think about it or take action. This is me taking action!!! no one will stand in my way to have a happy life. and if you do then you are not allowed in my life!

it gets old naming theis

It doesn't hurt as bad as it did in the beginning. I am facing the truth of the matter that i probably blew the whole thing out of peroration. It still hurts and I still think about you all the time. I know that you don't feel the same way about me BC if you did you would make more of an effort. But on the other hand how can you when you are still with someone else? I know that its going to take a lot for me not to be the one that texts you but I am going to try so hard not to.


On the other hand I am sick of people wanting to know my business. Its my life. If you don't approve of what I do then there is no room for you in my life. I know everyone doesn't want me to get hurt but that is life. As far as i am concerned I would much rather have you not care!

Summer?

So its going to be about 50 degrees outside and the only think that I want to do it just be outside. Im so pumped for wither to roll in don't get me wrong but im digging the warmer weather. why is it that no matter when i go to bed i am up at the crack of dawn....I guess that means that i should do something with those hours of my life..... This is my ramble