yeah yeah yeah

when did things change so much? When did it become me against the world. I feel like when it rains it pours. I feel like i am getting more independent and I am kinda digging it. I use to be so good and being alone and now I am getting back to it. I am so excited about summer. I want to go camping so bad. I am chomping at the bit to go. this is my ramble.

I cant shake this feeling

I have this feeling that i am not going to be enough for anyone. I know that boyfriends are not all they are cracked up to be. Most would say that they are overrated but for me i have never experienced it before. I want to know that someday i will have someone that loves me for who i am. Its not that i want one now (even tho i do) i just want this feeling that i am going to be alone FOREVER!

I need to stop obsessing over stupid stuff that is not going to happen..... I don't have joy anymore. I am crabby all the time, I want change but i want things to stay the same, I want to get out of this mold and live.... Pack up and go that is what i really want to do. i know that i would miss so many people and more than likely come back within a week but what if i don't.. what if i love it.....